mea-culpa

2013!! What a year last year was. So many experiences, so many emotions. I gained friends and lost a couple. I gained family at the same time as losing some. So what does this new year have in store for me? Hopefully it'll be a year full of art work and colour. I plan on starting what I'm calling "Project Happiness" which will hopefully be a way of promotive positive feelings and general positivity. It will be a mish-mash of spoken word poetry, paintings, drawings, graffiti and posters. As well as a little bit of human kindness. This year could see me travelling a lot and I'm currently unsure where 'home' will be, but wherever it is it wi

Problems: Jobless Falling for a girl, really falling Too shy/ too much of an idiot to properly express my feelings No longer finding much confort in writing poetry Why do I feel like this? I'm a nervous wreck, sat looking at her Facebook chat Icon, too scared to even say "hi" It's ridiculous, genuinely ridiculous. I just feel like a burden. I just want to run away and pretend it isn't happening, but I know that that won't help. Am I weird?

What a rollercoaster of emotions. I can't breathe, I can't think. I just wander aimlessly through each day. My thoughts always come back to the same place. I feel sick, I feel numb, upset and dumb. My tongue doesn't work and my eyes avoid. I dream of taking her around the world. How can one person make another feel like this? I am heart-stolen.